Meh

Why? Why does it matter? Why can't I seem to get a plan in place and stick with it? Why does it seem like I have no control over anything? Other than the fact that I don't...

I seem to be sitting at a crossroads right now. The crossroads being here and now. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. My heart is loving and hanging with high schoolers, that's for sure. But when it comes down to it, I feel overwhelmed with the idea of trying to do something brand new and paving a new road in Kalamazoo. I don't feel like many people understand...maybe that's because I've been talking about it for almost 3 years now and there still isn't anything to show for it.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I just need to figure out a time when I can sit down and make a plan for this whole thing...